As things move along...

So I guess one could say things are going great...that one would be lying...
Whoever said college are they best years of your life...you are a liar...

Enough with the sadness...for now

Camp Teams are now set and I must say I am honestly really excited...most of the time..
Sometimes I wonder if my personality is going to be too much for the ministry position,,,
Apparently I am over confident, over productive, plan too much, too organized, and competitive. Correct me if I am wrong but I did not think ALL of those were bad things...oh well

Still trying to decide where I am going to do my internship and what I am going to do with my life.
My dream come true would be for the position of my dreams to magically appear and they want to hire me. When I watch those kids sit on the side of the sanctuary I am so excited for what their lives can become and I just want to be apart of this wonderful things that is happening. Is this all too much for a girl to ask...I guess so.

I just want it to all be okay...and I'm not sure when it will be...
I just need an internship and I need to know where my life is going... Sometimes I want to read the back of the book or even just the front panel to see where all of this is going...but I guess that is cheating... For now well...sit back, relax (yea right) and hold on tight for the next half of this crazy ride.

So Now What???

You come to that point in your life where nothing seems to make sense and you feel like no matter which path you take you will probably regret it at some point....oh you haven't??? well lucky you.

In a matter of a weekend my thoughts have changed drastically. Not only will the decisions I make affect my own life but the emotional and spiritual life of my family and friends (what are left of them) as well. No matter which path I take someone is happy and someone else not so much or even in the worst case those someones dwindle in number because well thats what happens when you try to change peoples lives.

I guess what matters is that I am happy and I am content in what I am choosing to do...if only it were that easy. I knew this day would come...the day in which everything had to change because well I couldn't be happy with a normal carrer with the typical 8-5 monday thru friday job....OF COURSE NOT...I'm me after all.

I can honestly say that I did not think that it would be this hard...I'm an idiot. I have pondered possibilities in my head over and over and the outcome is never good enough for everyone...so my ultimate decision is what or who am I willing to lose. And that revelation is like getting a giant bowl of lucky charms and realizing your brother picked out all the marshmallows...IT STINKS!!!!!

However there is this little thing called my DREAM that I will make happen...and those willing to hang with me are in for a bumpy ride...those who aren't, welp I guess they can read about it in my blog :)

A beginning to an end...

So as I ponder new years resolutions and promises that I wont keep to myself something from my past semester struck me to attempt to fulfill a resolution that I have wanted to start for many years.
As life gets crazy and this chapter of college education is coming to an end I have realized that however crazy it all gets I want to be able to remember what happend and to relive the glorious experiences over and over agian...
So whether I am alone in my readings or this blog is published in my bio many years from now...here goes...

7 days into the new year and it has already had its ups and downs. Where will it end up, well it seems as though the ending to my story will not come without the crazy twists and turns that God seems to write into this comedy of my so called life