You come to that point in your life where nothing seems to make sense and you feel like no matter which path you take you will probably regret it at some point....oh you haven't??? well lucky you.
In a matter of a weekend my thoughts have changed drastically. Not only will the decisions I make affect my own life but the emotional and spiritual life of my family and friends (what are left of them) as well. No matter which path I take someone is happy and someone else not so much or even in the worst case those someones dwindle in number because well thats what happens when you try to change peoples lives.
I guess what matters is that I am happy and I am content in what I am choosing to do...if only it were that easy. I knew this day would come...the day in which everything had to change because well I couldn't be happy with a normal carrer with the typical 8-5 monday thru friday job....OF COURSE NOT...I'm me after all.
I can honestly say that I did not think that it would be this hard...I'm an idiot. I have pondered possibilities in my head over and over and the outcome is never good enough for everyone...so my ultimate decision is what or who am I willing to lose. And that revelation is like getting a giant bowl of lucky charms and realizing your brother picked out all the marshmallows...IT STINKS!!!!!
However there is this little thing called my DREAM that I will make happen...and those willing to hang with me are in for a bumpy ride...those who aren't, welp I guess they can read about it in my blog :)
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